haix-
this is life. cruel as it is. unfair as it is. numb as it is..
really tired this few days. was trying to pia hwk until late night or can i say the nxt day? lolx. and tada. hwk still unfinished. hmm.. i think hwk are meant to be unfinishable de right? lolx. -.-
this wk is bad. horrible. terrible..
why do so many things happen all of a sudden? why do so many things happen this yr..?
zy is gg to canada this dec. steph is gg back to taiwan. xly has gone back to china. daniel has went to aus or usa.
these news are just so shocking. imagine. they are not coming back anymore. zy is coming back. but its like a few yrs later then come back.. gosh. i will miss him menx.. :( steph is not coming back anymore.. well. mayb for vacation only? haix. does that mean that its the last time im gna see her today? :( xly and daniel. both my juniors had gone to study or wte. ouch. imagine i just got to know them a lil better and they leave just lidat.
the truth is unbearable. is this part of growing up? if thats the case. plx. dont let me grow up. it hurts to see the ppl arnd leaving you one by one.
i saw them cry. will i cry if you leave me?
we know the answer.
photo takings are ok. :) i got to sit down for cdc photo. yay! finally. oopx. hahax. for class one i hope i look ok. but normally i dont look ok lehx.. -.- last yr taking class photos le.. i hope i can leave a gd impression for everyone whenever they look at our photo.. :)
L stands for loyalty. not losers kae. :D
we are left with 15 wks for each other le.
i hope we can cherish the happy moments together from now on.
what if im the nxt to leave..?let me smile.
schoolterm3-
arent feeling rather high this few days..
what has gotten into me? im not like this last time..
at least. not in my lower sec..
whats gg on? is this.. me?
ive been asking myself a thousand times. a million times. even a zillion times.. yet i couldnt find the ans i want. i guess.. its only when you lost a gd friend nxt to you. you will realise that uve lost all the security you have..
yes. im lost.
well. ms lam told us today. gce olvl is only in 3mths 2wks 6days time.. lolx. its sooner than ive expected. its time i should wake up. dreams dont exist. right? :)
im still coughing.. hahax. has anyone realise tt?
background ans: no.
-.- owell.. hahax. nvm. no one will bother to notice me. it doesnt matter. im used to it. :) thank god no one saw me being so sickly pale last tues. thank god i could hang on till the moment i reach home. yay! im getting stronger. :D
i know im bad.. nearly flare up today. lolx.. i guess ive given in so much that no one thinks that ive got my limit. sometimes. i just need someone to understand me. but it seems like no one arnd me does.. well. mayb like what julia said. that person will appear. i shall believe. :)you havent seen the weakest me.:P
:(
well. it sucks when i have to be sick for so many days. and yea the moment i look at my hwk. damn headache came. i cant even use com for more than 15min. lolx. bad bad fever. ouch..being sick is really torturous. i cant even rest well. been shivering under 3 thick blankets and one jacket. and my tears just flow dwn bcuz of the heat or what? and my taste bud tastes weird.. haix. its really awful.. :(and tada. im only half recovered. butbutbut. i can jump le! :D but still abit voiceless.. =X well. i want everyone to see the hyper me again by mon. :)
so.. im still left with so many hwk. and guess what? school is reopening in 2days time!! whoot~ -.- i dont want school. i dont want to wake up at 5.30 everyday again. i dont want to have tests tests and endless tests..
i need a real break.
alright. so the ss essays qns are killing me. :) im alrdy half dead. and the hwk is trying to get me into my grave. wow. how nice it is to be a student huh. and great! ss is on tues! -.- somemore mon is 4.15 finish. damn laa. how to finish.. but mayb i should be glad that ss is not on mon huh? haix.
tie day tie day. ive got so much to comment for our new tt. lolx. =X but but but. to think about it. its my last timetable im gna have in this school le. so.. mayb i should keep the rest of the comments to myself bahx.. well. mayb. i will really miss this school.. esp my friends. :)
its sad to depart..dont tell me im alone.
20062006. :)
finally.
i cant take it anymore. i cant stay strong anymore. i cant stand alone anymore.
i give in le. i break down le. once again..
fever. sorethroat. headache. giddy. flu. cough. :(
why cant dreams become reality?
why cant 他 appear in real?
why cant everything happen in the way i want?i need you..:(
:)
owell. the co night is great! :D
gd job khang! and of cuz cchmsco. lolx. :)
seriously im so proud of them lur! they are so bonded. unlike the cdc i saw 2yrs ago when im on the stage. cuz i dont feel that im being encouraged or what shit except from some of my seniors.. thats really pathetic. :) so im happy for khang! and cheryl! :D
ytd was a grand night. thats why we all daban till soo pretty pretty and shuai shuai. LOL. :P okok. mayb like what jl said or what. its only my handband. or my shirt and skirt nia. NOT me. -.- alright. so mayb i have to confess that yes. jm is thinner than me. but she 瘦得比我美. fine laa. -.- ppl ugly you thought i want de mehx.. -__-
so b4 i went to conight. im feeling so terrible. :( damn headache and i dunno what happen to my stomach. just simply dont feel well. but i dont care i want to go to the concert. -.- hahax. so yea hai hao i feel better when i reach the mrt. but those guys are horrible. they are late omg. -.- i hate it when guys have to let girls wait. its so.. ungentlemen. lolx. =X but anw we went off first w/o them lorx. they are soooo slow.. -.-
overall its a gd night. cuz jl pei me till blk59. :) they were jk bout cinderella have to reach hm by 12. -.- so sad im not. cuz i got no prince send me home. T-T rofl. hahax. and yaa. i got blisters. -.- pain pain. :( was screaming the whole day today. cuz its so freaking pain lur. might have to wear jeans this few wks le. its so ugly. :(
btw. i saw rainbow ytd. its so beautiful. :) was wondering.
how many rainbows can we see in a lifetime?
ps. i like my blog music somehow. isit sad enough? lolx. :)
ive got a weird feeling again. hey shoo. tell me why..huiyi.plx try to stay strong.no matter what-
ahh-
headache. big headache. :(
i cant fall sick now! or mum will not let me attend the co concert! -.- and my 12bucks will go to the drain!! nooooooo~
[alright this is so drama -.-]
yaa so today chem was gr8. cuz mrs tan brought that honey sweets! omg. :) and yea we were all digging for it cuz she put it at the very bottom. -.- it was really hilarious when you see that bottle being passed arnd and practically everyone was trying to dig that type of sweets only* LOL. alright. so fruit plus and mentoes are out fashion huh? rofl.
was actually ok. but dman headache came. :( wasnt really feeling v well when i woke up though. but i managed to pull up a smile when i get out of the house. i cant be sad again omg. :)
oya! i came to know of a horrifying thing in class today. -.- we have to do ALL qn from the ss hwk. which means ALL structured essay qns. which is like about 16qns? -.- uhoh. how to complete them menx? although i have already know that we have to do EVERYTHING when i got that hwk. but you know i really have the hope that we can choose 1 out of 3 essay qns. BUT. sp dash my dreams.. T-T so i have no choice but to start bucking up nxt wk and try my very best to complete them.. :( haix. why is ss so different from what i learnt 4yrs ago? why can p6 stuffs be so ez and sec4 stuffs are so terrible?! its just 4 yrs difference only! and yes. like what sp said. this holiday is only for us to clear hwk. strictly no revising chances available. damn. -.-
ahax. theres fireworks just now! though i dunno how come got. hahax. yea. so i saw that one. the one i love the most. :) and yea. the dark blue sky is covered with stars. if you try to focus. you can actually see alot. thats so.. nice. :) with the accompaniment of the night breeze. wow. fantastic. incredible. shiok! :D
and so.. tibia outing was cancelled. =X nvm nvm. after olvls! :D have chance de! you yuan zi ran neng zai jian mian. :) i believe in this. and so. i believe in fate. lolx. if we are really mean to be together. we will.
omg. i feel like eating tibits! that hot and spicy one! :( but its soo heaty. ouch.knip+elprupgdorbad?
weird-
got a really weird feeling now.. dunno why though..
just got a tinge of disappointment somehow..?
but WHY?
din complete any hwk today.. but but but. i did finish writing my letter to mich! big success can! whoot~
went to punggol. alamak. bout 1hr de bus ride. lolx. i sed i wanna take mrt! mum dun want.. =X so yea. saw my old friend. he din change much though. hahax. but we din talk. not even a single word. i mean have we even talked b4? :O mayb thats the process of growing up? =X lolx. but nvm. who cares~! im not even shou with him. lalala. ahahahax. i saw the baby! so cute can! :) and yes. i saw denise. :) oya! she reminded me that im a pink freak today. -.- unintentionally. i wore pink handband. pink wai tao. pink slippers. GOSH. -__-
punggol is not a bad place though. the econ is BIG. but. i would prefer sengkang or hougang if im gna move somewhr arnd there. cuz there de shopping mall nicer lur! LOL. but thats impossible laa. we will nv move there. :)
hmm. tibia is organising outing? just recieve my tuition cher de sms. fri mayb tuition. uhoh. lolx. see? time is packed. :( and guess what. 29hwk. ive only completed the pathetic 16. ouch. pathetic.. tsktsk.
god. save me. -.-
i dont wanna listen.
do you know how much it hurts..?
no. you wont know.
ty. im a nobody.
confidencelost-
haix-
everyone's aslp now. and leave me alone in the living room.. -.-
can i say smth? im seriously so afriad of dark. and i dare to move anywhr now. damn.
why must my brother slp so early today?! argh. :(
alright so im feeling awful today. headache flu giddy. aiya just not feeling well laa. hahax. mayb its cuz of the sun. or ive been slping late nwadays? =X but after eating the panadol. and have bout 2hrs of nap. im feeling better le. :D
i havent completed half of my hwk yet. :( and im left with less than 2 wks.. aww.
we MUST jia you le.
combine humans sux can! soo difficult! -.-
but olvl sux more.. :(
time is really running out.ahh.whocanpeiwo.:(
:)
guess what. i pass my grade 8 theory. :D
its freaking tyco can. 66 marks to pass. and tada. i got 66 marks. -.- hahax. :P
but.. its abit sad that i dunno who to share my happiness with. lolx..
if i sms you. and tell you.
"hey!! know what? i pass my theory lehx! yay! :D"
what will be your reply?
"oh. gratx lor.."
or worse?
"yala yala.. pro lor.. grade 8 liao."
haix.. seriously. im not trying to hl. i just want someone to share my happiness. but i guess its so not ez to find that someone. right..?
grade 8 so what? why are ppl always trying to put me in a situation in which i dont want to. am i those kind of person who will suan you with my success? am i those kind of ppl who will look dwn on you?
if you think i am. then fine. just go ahead and tell me to shut up. i wont disturb you anymore. no more. serious.
i promise.
sometimes. you nv know that your lil actions. can hurt me too..
i couldnt find you..
so lost..you just have to let go.its not a choice anymore.
o0.
just realise i havent been blogging for a long time. =X
so yaa. 2 wks of my dar dar holiday is gg to be gone soon.. T-T
damn. i have to go back on my track soon. and back to the stress me again.. :)
first wk of holiday was erm.. intensive lectures. lolx. nth goes in laa. -.- i guess we were only talking among ourselves. and only the center row was listening? hahax. well. gna flunk bio menx. just realise. bio MAY be my worst sci subj lehx.. -.-
oya. and 060606 was such a nice number laa. :D
i was telling julia on the bus that i wanna watch that omen de movie. cuz i saw the advertisement on the tv mahx. but then i dunno how to pronounce. so i say the chinese word instead. 凶兆. serious. i mean this! but you know the hanyupinyin.. -.- xiong zhao? and jl was like -_-. lolx.
hey im such an innocent kid laa. i dont think so far. :P
had been gg shopping this 2 wks. -.- damn. money fly. ytd brought mum to pastamania. 13.10 bucks.. -.- hahax. you might be wondering why i brought mum there. cuz she nv eat spaghetti b4 mahx. so i v nice laa. treat her. :) and so i conclude. the creamy chicken sux laa. -.- o well. thats just my opinion. lolx. i wanted that tomato thing. but after the waitress served us. she say the creamy chicken looks ahem. then bo bian i let her have my tomato thingy. -.- could you imagine i was having an awful time ytd? :(
so ive spent 30+ bucks this 2 wks. 10+ is the lunch thingy. the rest are for bday prezzies. gosh. -.- wonder if anyone will bother to put in as much effort in buying my prezzies too? LOL. :P
hmm. actually mum let me ytd go rebond hair de. but.. i thought of the financial problems. i plan to postpone it to after olvl. lolx. save money first. =X
wahahahax. are you thinking that im getting more and more dong shi? :) yes. i am. lolx. ^^
oya. i havent even completed half of my holiday hwk.. :) gr8. being a sec 4 really sux. :(
i wanna be back a sec 1 kid. with no worries. and live my life so carefree. and have fun even without a com. things can be so simple.
yet now. im having such a complicated life? haix.
so many ppl fell sick nowadays. and i think im the next lehx. -.- had been having flu this few days and it wont go away. instinct tells me that fever is on its way.. argh.
ahax. i declare im falling in love! with soo many songs! :D
i love guang liang! i love jay! i love junyang! i love jj! i love zhang shan wei! yay! their songs are so nicee! :)lansebuyidingdaibiaoyouyu.lansedetiankong. jiushiyizhongkuanrong.:)
060606. :)
alone-silence-
nth special happens this few days. what a boring life. i dunno why i keep do hwk.
do do and do. do do and do.
but why still i only completed so lil? im sianded. alot..
din really blog this wk huh.. lolx. cuz i dunno what shld i blog about.. i mean if i start blogging. sad stuffs will just appear. and im sure you guys will not want to know..
my mood was not as bad this few days laa. at least i keep myself no time to think. i mean. i have to right?
yet i dunno why i can just suddenly have the urge to cry laa. damn it? lolx. for i dunno what reasons omg. i feel like talking to someone. hahax. but again. im too afraid to start. start a conversation needs so much courage.
you need the courage to accept cold replies. you need the courage to get rejected. you need the courage to not cry.
and for goodness sake. i have none. -.-
im hoping for the better.
i need someone to change my life. again.
totally.
im so afraid that i ll forget how to express myself.perhaps im really unnoticeable..
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仙人掌的刺 是为了自我保护
内心不让人进入..
am i one?prove me wrong.
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