i may seems unconcern.
but..
the fact is..
i do care..

y isit always the person u love the most hurt u the most too?

y mux e truth owaes hurts?

its jux so unfair..

Ichliebedich.

alone- 5:15 PM

helpless.

my parents. i noe. they r wrying bout money matters. yes. i noe. they wan us to live in a big house. but. we cant afford. i cant blame them. rite? i only have to accept. the truth.

move new house. might need bout 60+k or even more. cuz the new house no cupboard. no sink. nth. only cement floor. cemented wall. =x i cant do anyting. i feel so bloody helpless. u understand? i hope i can jux go out n earn money now. but. i cant..

i feel so extra. wasting their money only. argh. so many yrs de savings. might not even be enough for this new house.. haix.. now my dad. i dont even think he ll ever learn to grow up. only know every of his freaking hell things r precious. cant he ever learn how to sell. or throw?

haix. y is life so cruel?

i jux wanna live i my own world.

shut u off.

alone- 9:13 PM

lolx.. mei ask me to do dis.. can i reject? :( hahax.

o1. if u get a wish of anything, what would u wish for?
happiness. :)

o2. what animal would u be?
bunny. jumpin arnd so cute-ly.

o3. something u wanna do in ur life!
find true luv.

o4. one time there were these ninja's.. (cont')
who holds a weapon. lolx.

o5. one song u could listen over and over again.
jie kou.

o6. coke or pepsi?
coke. put the lime in the coke u nut!

o7. something u currently desire.
to get out of this house.

o8. what's a "mastoid" ? (no peeking of the dictionary)
erm. m-a-s-t-o-i-d. :)

o9. one good thing u ve done lately.
love the ppl arnd me. ^^

1o. a funny moment in ur life.
when a salesman tryin to con us but in turn kana con by us instead!

fairy tales do exist.

they just dont have a

happy ending..

alone- 7:27 PM

wow.

dis few daes. happen real LOTS of stuffs.

thurs. i went to bugis wit ls. :) ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. i cant stand her. sooo chio.. -.- make me so.. er.. dot dot dotx. anw. our noeprints r pretty pretty. :P i got put up some in frienster. but not all. cuz some r blur. i use dig camera to take de mahx.. den mine is low quality one. lolx. im gonna earn LOTS nxt time. to buy myself a scanner. rofl. pengx. anw. we each spent $8 on e neoprints. =x ex. i noe. but. 1yr take wit each other one time. its worth it. we eat in kfc. hmm. not bad. but.. e burger v small.. :( i wan long john silver!! i 2yrs nv eat le!! pengx. but dats true. hahax. anw after dat we went bac into dat junction n walk walk. den walk into a bkshop. i luv bks. :) i mean comics. rofl. hahax. den we go in. walk walk. den i saw a horoscope bk or smt lidat. ls n i went to read. a guy walk towards us. i duno y.. but instincts tell me hes not up to any gd.. so i told ls dat i finish reading le. den we get out. but i din tell her y.. lolx. after dat we wet out to sit n tok. dat guy come towards us. tok to us wit duno wat hell language. n duno for wat purpose. den he luk so tiko. so pervertic. wtf? den ls jux kip sae duno duno. lolx.. den we quickly went dwn e floor. den we sit at another chair. den not for long. dat guy come dwn. walaoeh. u noe how scared m i? i hate dis kind of er xin guys laa. somemore hes so dirty. den he walk one big round n go up again. erm.. do u tink hes shen jing bing de? eww. anw a few min later he come dwn again. dis time i pull ls all e wae to seiyu. or wte e name is. phew. escaped. but nitemare. =x we had a gr8 chat. :) i tell her my story. she tell me her story. lolx. she kip sae she very bad cuz ahem ahem. den i sae. im e baddest. which is true. i hurt someone unknowingly. n when i wanna bu chang. everyting. is too late.. anw. i luv dat dae. its my happiest one dis yr. :)

ytd. when i was eatin maggi mee for lunch. my mum's frien called. i tot wat. den my mum suddenly 'WHAT? here gg to chai?!' den i huh? no appetite eat liao. lolx.. imagine. live here for 15yrs liao lorx. i alrdy resign to fate dat im gonna stuck here for e rest of my life untill i find a hubby n marry off. lolx. n now. suddenly tell me i can move in 2007-2010. lolx. dats realli a shock or surprise? anw. i plan alot. i plan which rm i wan live. which rm wan put wat. LOL. but dats impossible de. cuz my dad.. sure wan one rm to put his birds. its unfair. i tot rooms r for ppl to live in? y in turn for his fcuking birds. -.- surely get complain de lorx. but i ll b so freaking happi. :) dey better fine him. so dat he ll willing to sell awae those idiotic birds. plx god. punish him!! i wan peace laa. :( shld i resign my fate again dat i ll stuck wit those birds all my life? haix.

btw. got a merit bursury. :) i din expect dat.. lolx.. cuz im so not clever.. den lq din get. which is so.. bu ke si yi.. mayb she ll get it in dis few daes bahx. cuz she second in class lehx.. -.- far more better den me. lolx. anw. ytd got 2 surprises for me. :)

i wanan run awae from reality.

alone- 8:16 AM

o0

wed liao. fast bohx.. tml psle results come out. :) luckx to all.

alot of ppl gg overseas dis hol sia.. :( tuition cher dis sat fly. hying dis sun fly. erich alrdy fly. ck last wk fly. xw last wk fly. lolx. who else? forgot liao.. lolx. anw. enjoy guys. :) e last proper hol we gonna haf.. den.. we hafta wait for 1yr! pengx.

haf been doing cards dis few daes. lolx. jux finish qy de card. :) quite nice. LOL. okok im praising myself. (: ahhax. lolx. sam de card not v nice.. but. hey.. i did my bex. lolx.

maple happyfool lvl 26 still.. mage lvl 17. mage ezier to lvl plxxor. but horx.. kip kana scolded.. got one noob ks me lehx. warrior lai de.. den she sae i ks her. wtf? noob is noob. cant blame. lvl 21 nia lorx. my warrior lvl 26 PLX. dot dot dotx. lucky she go awae after she scolded. if not ql wan help me ks her. :) hey noob. u better count urself lucky god bless u. -.- hmm. i like my mage charac. happiiendo. :) BUT. happyfool oso nice. :) i ll try to lvl both laa. but furx. get my mage to lvl 21 first. =x so dat can do pq mahx.. hahax. anw. nw maple patch.. :( so sianx.. btw. i got silver sb liao. :D zw GAVE me. so gd rite. :) den my mage FINALLY got a sky sb too. hahax. todae no more sb liao.. nvm. makes no diff to me. i need to kill bout 1000+slimes to get 1 sb. forget it lo.

u noe wat. mayb. he changed. :) to e better. hahax. i like e wae he is nw. more gentleman. LOL.im realli a bad girl dat time.. hurt him soo much.. =x i sux wat.. haix..

i wan a happy ending..

alone- 6:02 PM

sianx.

my mum's husband. is barkin again.. haix. when can i get e peace i wan? fcuk off. i dun wan u.

maple mage lvl 15. :) warrior lvl 26.. =x

homework. havent touch yet..

outing. none at e moment.

boring.

im sick of life.

alone- 7:58 PM

moodless-

haix. i hate myself. y m i a saddist. y m i so pessimistic. y i owaes haf my own tinkin?

i hate it. when ppl interfere my life. i hate it. when ppl go round tellin me wat to do. i hate it. when ppl go round n tell ppl wat i wanna do. i mean. its my OWN problem. none of ur business. -.- lucky i dun live dere. whr im being watched everydae. privacy. understand? cant stand it when my freakin mum go round tellin ppl wats my future planx. siam laa. n dats not even wat i wanna do laa. stop helpin me plan. this is MY life. n you. dont sae im rebellious. everyone sed dat. fcukin rong? u nv poor b4. u nv suffer b4. u nv kana scolded wit all e san zi jing b4. wth u noe? happi family u got. so wat. argh.

my hammy. got cancer? or wte. duno. jux wanna cry. i wanna break dwn. i wana cry. real loud. y mux i owaes face this kind of shit.. ren sheng de sheng li si bie. i shld b numb by now rite? i nv even cry when my grandma n my uncle died. i jux feel empty. yes. mayb sad. but din cry. but nw. jux bcuz of a hammy? haix.. tired. yes.. tired of these tings..

todae went to shatec. :) i din tie hair on bus. cuz i wanna slp mahx.. tie hair v ma fan lehx. lolx.. i noe i luk like a ghost.. but dats ur prob. :P learn smt bahx. though its boring. but quite fun oso. hahax. hmm. first time went to a restaraunt. ... abit noob i noe. lolx. aw. i like e food. :D hahax. very nice worx. except e cake laa. hahax. e cake.. not v nice.. but still manage to stuff dem into my mouth. cannot waste food mahx.. :( aiya. anw. one lucky ting. julia n me got e mox potato wedges!! LOL. lalala-

went dwn at e paya lebar mrt dere. dey wan go toilet. so go lorx. den gues wat?!?!?! i saw my bro de GF! LOL. erm. her backview n sideview nia. cuz.. im retarded laa.. when i realise dat time.. she alrdy walk off le.. :( anw. she not v thin laa.. rofl. but. din manage to c her face lehx.. haix. lolx. to sae e truth. i nv c her b4. cuz she everytime come my house when i not at hm one. tink is purposely one.. cuz my bro dun wan let me c her.. :( m i so ugly dat cant b presented?

julia wana pierce e sec ear hole. duno how it luks like lehx. when do proj den c laa.. hahax. but. dun tink ll b nice.. =x

actualli wan go out after e shatec one.. but. i noe dey sure got ppl to go out wit de. n yea. julia go out wit junior. charr go out wit her friens. hying go out wit her mum n aunties. n me. go hm do nth.. -.- sianx. pia maple lorx.. but still onli at lvl 13? sianx diao..

i wanna go out!!

alone- 7:59 PM

:(

i wan silver snowboard! i wan i wan!! :( but.. lao tian ye dun let me haf it.. haix.. y i so suayded? i fight together wit my bro. yet he got FOUR sky sb n i got NONE. wtf laa. :( sad plx. i fight zombie mushrms. fight for 2 hr. n i still cant find. yet there de ppl all got. walaoeh.. haix.. shld i. gif up?

sianx laa. 6 hrx. wasted-

unfair!!

alone- 1:43 PM

tired. -)

lolx. ya. ytd got fire camp. oopx. its camp fire. :P hahax. anw. lolx. lifeskills camp ytd. fun? yea. hahax. we cooked e maggi mee in e mornin. lolx. den charr n julia helpin us to eat it b4 we present.. lolx. den after dat after adding other stuffs.. charr dare not eat. lolx. not bad laa. we cook one lorx. of cuz is gd laa. LOL. hmm. den after dat play games. er.. eh. hmm.. all i can sae is piang. e water games sux laa. -.- not fun one. make us so ju sang nia.. den ahhax. i like e last station! cuz my bro is dere! LOL. :P b4 dat e tea break rox plx. :) furx time in my life ate cheese cake. rofl. its. nice. but.. too sweet. lolx. i like e chocolate one more. :P den after games eat lunch.. e lunch sux? tink we all ate onli bout half e packet.. e rice was so hard laa. -.- cant even swallow properly. ahhax. so kua zhang. actualli no laa. jux dat its abit too hard. hahax. den ahhax. e skool value part. quite. lame.. 3 yrs in skool dont tell me we dunno wats skool value.. -.- somemore we sing skool song everydae lorx. lolx. but anw. hey. we won smt. yay. finally. :) e structure ting lorx. i tot dat guy was kidding. erm.. den e aeroplane i duno y cant fly. anw. later im gonna try. :P fire camp was cool. but tony sed its old fashion.. :( n again. first time in my life i haf seen a fire camp. lolx. after everyting. went home lorx..

u noe wat?! when i reach hm i saw my bro turning e dice for e maple charac!! rofl. i was laughin like mad e moment i reach hm. cuz he once sae me childish for playin maple. pengx. den my dad tot i siaox. :D den my bro so stupid laa. wanna b warrior.. -.- follow my footsteps. told him he ll regret. but he jux kip sae wait till he b dragon knight. -.- dat ll take years laa. -.- anw. teach him how to play maple till 11+. lolx.. if w/o my help tink he zao jiu die liao lorx. anw he lvl 10 liao. todae den bring him go perion be warrior. hahax. c. im such a gd sis. but. ll he appreciate it? haix.

anw. jux went to schooldna. to do e pc ting. aww. i dun like pc. :( its so confusing. but. hey. i din fail. :P anw dat one alot of repetition one laa. duno y tec put so many. pengx.

gg to tuition later. binomial!! yay! i luv binomial! :)

btw.. last yr de ytd. is 2ep'04 class camp.. x) fast yea.. time flies..

*i duno lehx. confused.

complicatedlife.

alone- 11:14 AM

-

readin at my previous blogs.. i suddenly realise dat. i miss ep. real badly.. 15nov. last yr. is 2ep de class camp. so many tings happen. real lots. mother candle. water bomb. treasure hunt. night walk. all e meetings. walk up e cca luking at e specimen. go up e balcony n watch e scenery. its jux. too nice. too beautiful de memory. yet. its all. gone. poof-

one of my entries.

we can nv b like b4. face it. go n find new friens. i dont mind. u can find new friens n replace my seat during recess. as long as. u r happi.

yea. i told ls in e letter. as long as u r happi. i ll b happi. i jux wan u to b xing fu..

hmm. 1 yr. pass. y mux time flies? y cant it walk. stroll. or crawl. y mux resort to fly? i hate to face e truth. i hate to face e reality. i hate to know dat. we r drifting apart..

once a empathizer. forever an empathizer. :)

13143344.

alone- 4:18 PM

duno wat do i feel-

todae. was a happi dae. i tot in e mornin. cuz i haf written 7 letters to my dear loyalty friens. yet. i suddenly got e urge now. of regrettin. to rite for some of dem.. i jux feel so unappreciated. u noe. e feelin sux? i fold e stars tilll hand pain. hu can realli understand? it is an extremely sucking dae. for me. at least. ewwww. it sux kae.

it sux when im tryin not to pang seh ppl. yet. i got pang sehed. i duno wat to sae. i duno wat to do. sitting down dere. got no one to tok to. feelin sooo extra. yet. u duno. i began to suspect myself. y din i haf a realli true frien.. someone hu can listen to me. tok crapx. n troubles. n of cuz. happiness. dis dream is soo far. unreachable. haix. ur a substitution. dats wat u told me b4. u sed sorry. but sorry no cure. u dun understand. how me feel. i had alwaes tot dat as long as im a gd frien. ppl ll treat me dat too. but. im rong. soo hell rong. mayb.. its time for me to wake up.. y m i soo horribly stubborn.

i wanna let u go. but y m i soo stupid n dun wanna forget u. deletin ur msges awae from my inbox ll help anot? at least. probably.. i can try to erase some part of e happi memory bahx?

gratx charr. u haf found ur xing fu yea. hahax. may u b happy forever. :)

heritage tour was fun. lolx. cool too. esp e dome in e supreme court. hying is crazi. jux lie on e slanted window plane. -.- scare dao all of uss laa. pengx lorx. it feel likes going to jump dwn a building lidat. scary siaa. overall. realli learn alot of tings. i like fort canning. though alot of mosquitoes.. =x hahax. its beautiful. :)

btw. todae mark d end of my sec 3 life. its gonna b tough nxt yr. but im not prepared yet.. haix. sianx lorx.. hope nxt yr de classrm.. can b free from those ppl whom i dun wana c. hope i can do well nxt yr. hope we can all succeed.

time to reflect huiyi..

shi bai shi bai..

alone- 5:23 PM

o0.

long time din post. was bz. bz. n BZ. =x skool dis wk. was slack. we r alrdy in hol mood lorx. dis wk cant learn much stuffs one laa. BUT. deres 2 tests.. :O sianx you mei you.. finished 2 proj. but havent hand up or wte. anw. was reallli fed up by myself laa. so mani hw. n i jux cant complete lorx. in d end.. nearly fell sick.. -.- was feeling not well. lolx. lucky no cdc todae. went hm n wanna slp. kana force to c a doc. in d end. e no tag we got is 31. but e no e doc is c-ing is 19.. -.- means i hafta wait bout 1 hr.. -.- slp wat.. by dat time finish alrdy 4+ laa. den slp 1 hr v shuang mehx? pengx. in d end i buey song lorx. plus aiya.. alot of factor laa. den went hm. i go slp. 2 hrs. :) very refresh nw. but not very. still abit headache. =x but shld b can recover by tml. hahax. whee~

had piano on fri. took mrt. kana scolded by dat bus driver.. -.- he jux kip accuse me of using e purple ezlink [old ppl use de laa] den dun let me haf chance to explain.. -.- make me so bloody malu laa.. its workin time u noe. den its like more ppl den usual laa.. mornin alrdy so suay. wat else to sae for e rest of e dae? pengx.

sat went to cuzzin hm. :) long time no go. everyting is still e same. jux dat. dey change fridge. LOL. hahax. i onli realise dat later. lolx. anw my cuzzin gif me a hp pouch. so nice of he rite? x) though i alrdy dun use pouch. i ll try laa. dun wan waste mahx.. hahax. had a realli meaningful dae.

sun. in e mornin alrdy kana scolded by dad. obviously i din had a gd dae.. tryin to pia hw.. yea.. try.. -.- in d end couldnt tahan animore. jux fell into bed n slp..

mon. furx dae. lolx. hahax. we were bz copying hw. oya. mon is oso e beginin of olvl. =x may dey do well.. anw. had a gd chat wit friens. mayb we realli miss each other. :P

todae. 2lectures. cool. noe y? slackin time!! LOL. hahax. dats so cool. i so luv lectures. ^^ but mrs indra kip luk at my direction.. cant eat biscuits! :( n erich n shikun kip pull my hair todae.. -.- erich tryin to dye my hair. pengx. lolx. feelin soooo insecure. hahax. had a not bad dae in skool. slack e whole dae.

obtw. e ppl in new blk has moved over to e old blk temporary. yay! can c friens! but horx. havent realli got time to find dem.. =x or m i lazy? hahax. anw. mayb dun find dem may b better? duno. topics for conversation seems to decrease as time goes by. jux nw tv show. got one phrase is like dis. ' if a gal sae i dont know. she alrdy haf an ans. ' erm. quite true? duno. LOL.

anw. i m realli tired.. ll go slp early later. :) cuz. i wanna stay healthy. n eat chocolate! LOL.

i need slp. =x

alone- 8:04 PM

rebellious.

yes. perhaps im gettin rebellious.. i duno. i jux feel dat. i realli cant stand e tings which is hurtin me over n over again. it jux sux. fine. im getting sick of dis.

todae went to charr hm. :) nice. hahax. air con one! (: hahax. anw we went dere to do bio n ss proj. lolx. in d end. onli fen pei hao stuffs. but din realli do much. cuz we were practically tokin all e wae. :D hahax. den watch charr play maple. LOL. PillowCover! i realli tot is charr de pillow cover. rofl. pengx. anw when we doin proj half wae. yh msg me. sae wan join our grp. den aiya. charr julia n hying take turns to help me reply her. LOL. cuz i dunno hw to reject laa.. :( den her last msg make me so guilty plx. but. mayb dun reply her is d onli solution. =x todae e whole dae at charr's hm is practically laughin all e wae. :)

had a gd laugh b4 everyting went bac to hell when i reach hm.. i duno laa. i dun understand wat e fcukin shit is dere a need to kip bringing bac pests. if u got e time to clean them. FINE. but e prob is dat u got NO time. n u like to THROW ur temper on us when u cant finish cleanin e fcukin shit of ur pests. wtf? cant u jux understand. i jux wan a peaceful life. a happi family. a dad. a mum. a bro. hu concern me. hu can joke wit me. whom i can share my prob wit. but. none can..

elearnin.. -.- onli finish afew. to sae e truth. i realli duno hw to do. i realli feel like giving up.. everyting do half half. v sianx one u noe. theory oso.. do till i pek chek. practice piano. practice till i feel like slammin it. i can nv play well one lorx. y m i so fcukin stupid. arghh..

maple. lvl 23. =x slow. yes i noe im slow.. :( but realli.. sianx. aiya. tings jux cant go rite for me.

shld i learn to cherish. y mux u owaes scold me. y mux u owaes sae dat im throwin temper. sometimes. i jux need. to b alone..

i jux wanna leave dis home.

alone- 9:34 PM

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