finished chi olvl.

phew. its over. no more paper dis yr. :) cheerx. 7 marks poof- noe how i noe? my mum jux kip statin out my mistakes. fcuk it. i knew i did badly. could u like plx stfu.. -.- its over. yes. so stop tellin me. i cant go bac n edit my scripts. not animore. so. let me enjoy furx plx.

elearnin wk. sux plx. 8 subj. all elearnin. ... summore bio still needa do proj. such a waste of time. which idiot tink of dis idea menx. wan us die sia.. say bye bye to my hol. sux.

im tired. :O realli. sometimes. i jux wanna gif up u noe? gif up my life. gif up everyting. cuz we r still leavin everyting behind when we die rite? =x

played tong hua over n over again. how i wish some guy could play dat song for me menx. omg. soooo sweeet. LOL. hahax. but. dat might b one of my dreams bahx. :) wait wait. i shall wait. for him to appear. lolx.. but. its jux a matter of time..

sianx. sorethroat. cough. =x i cant break dwn. i mux hang on. till d end. too mani undone tings sia.. :O

i wanna help. im tryin to help. but. it seems soo useless. lolx. i wana help alot of ppl. yet all i can do is to listen. i duno how to comfort. i duno wat to do. wat a lousy jie. wat a lousy mei. wat a lousy frien im. haix. y m i so shi bai?

played maple e whole dae. lolx. maple.. perhaps charr is rite. playin game is d onli time whr we can face another world of ours. whr we sort of 'rule' it. feel kinda proud of my maple charac. though its not high lvl. yet i can one hitko lotsa creature which i use to not. not e reality. y r we. escaping from reality? y cant we face it. indeed. too mani tings r too confusin.

complicated life-

alone- 8:47 PM

sianx.

u noe wat? my l1r5 is actualli 20!! LOL. not 18.. not animore.. my mum was not happi laa duhh. -.- but.. i haf tried my bex.. rnt i hardworkin enuff? make me sooo stress up lorx.. yet. all i got bac was a cold reply.. anw. erich got 20 for l1r5 too. we same percentage. same class position. same lvl position. pengx. nw no more green come out from blue liao.. we r all blue nw.. :( rofl.

been pia-ing theory e whole dae. n maple. lolx. nw maple lvl 22 liao. ^^ anw. theory r jux sooo difficult.. make me do untill wan cry.. -.- but heck laa. e mox tell cher i duno hw to do lorx.. haix..

no lessons in skool todae. by rite.. todae shld b our last dae in skool one.. but our skool kiasu so got extension wk.. n LOTS of hw.. last yr de todae.. is e end of my sec 2 life.. last yr de todae. im sooo sad. cried last yr de todae. jux cuz. we r gonna seperate. yepp. one yr haf past.. time flies. n one more yr later. d end of my sec life. :( menx. i gonna miss everyone..

stop tellin me how gd she is. yes. e bk she gave u is soo nice. yes. she gave u my fav star. yes. she might haf ritten someting touchin inside e bk. yes. e pencil she gave u is cuter den e one i gave u. yes. shes da bex to u.. -.- but hey. stfu. i dun wanna noe.. u noe wat? i like e u in term 2. not e u in term 3 n 4. cuz.

u haf changed..

time flies..

alone- 7:14 PM

i jux dun understand.

y r some ppl sooo.. so ignorant. so arrogant. so f. i jux couldnt stand it. WHY? i realli c buey song lorx. can u like plx stfu? can u stop sayin how gd is she? how u kip sayin her name everywhr? i haf ENOUGH. i cant stand fcukin ppl like u. y cant u jux learn to cherish? y cant u jux b content? yes. u haf friens. wow. ALOT. yes. u got lotsa prezzie. wow ALOT. yes. u r sooooooooo popular. wow. y cant u like. feel glad dat u haf such a gd frien? yes. mayb my prezzie sux. yes. mayb it seems cheap. yes. mayb im a lousy frien. but. her prezziex is not.. rnt u touched? rnt u moved? r u happi? she put in soo much effort. n all u care was 'her' prezzie. yes. touched by it. wat bout herx? y r u so cruel? y r u so. inhuman.. i hate u.

tues. watched 2 movies. :) 'plx teach me english' n 'no man's land' v nice. esp e english one. i so luv ms adri. for lettin us watch dis show. korean one. yea.. its sooooooo sweeeeet. omg. im so despo nw.. hahax. i mean. hu dun wish for romance? esp girls lorx. we r more of e.. hahax. emotional type. anw. i jux sooo luv dat 2 ppl. elvis n candy gogogo!! yay! dey r soo cute plx. so shuai n chioo. :D i sooo luv e movie!! :)

wed. finish watchin 'no man's land'. sad. realli sad. but nice. ty mr chua. x) hahax. but horx.. hafta rite reflections.. -.- sianx.. had a realli tired dae. gonna fall sick. sneezin e whole dae. wadde freakin hell laa.. olvl chi comin n here m i fallin sick.. -.- sux.

thurs. HAPPI BIRTHDAE MUM!! n huiying laa! lolx. todae tryin to clear locker. yet stil got tons.. tml dead liao laa.. haix. sick. yes. im realli sick.. hey u noe wat. got one asshole insult me.. -.- jux coz i din play well my tong hua.. like she v gd lidat lorx. ruin e reputation of my dar dar gu dan bei ban qiu. pengx. she sux. let me tell dat girl dis. if im lousy. u r lousier. :)

*rainbow milktea sux.

you yuan wu fen.

alone- 6:36 PM

todae.

laugh like madd. im crazi. pengx. dis mornin was high. lolx. but laugh till no energy. den in d end v tired for e rest of e dae. hahax. got bac results. erm.. shld b ok? l1r5 18. improve yet hafta improve more. if not i cant go for my dream course. lolx. got chi remedial. yawn* so tired lorx. till 4+pm.. -.- dat penguin kip drag our time laa.. sianx lehx. tml oso lidat. tml de tml oso lidat. tml de tml de tml oso lidat. biangx. sianx. nth much else happen bahx. todae no much mondae blues. hahax.

sat.

flagg dae. at bedok. n we r onli restricted to a small place called bedok. n no whr else.. -.- imagine a few skoolx n some adults doin flagg dae at e same place. dotx. so squeezy laa. duno y kinda numb when ppl reject me. hahax. but when ppl put in money u can feel those soo happi de gan jue lorx. a guy donated 1buck. e furx guy who donated to me on dat dae. :) ate at mac wit juniors. lolx. e mac staff had some survey for us. u noe wat? dat mac is 24 hr one! hahax. ok.. im noob. lolx.

sun.

went to piano. den bac hm pia maple. den after dat. pia zuo wen ti gang n compre!! imagine. i finished 10 zuo wen ti gang ytd!! LOL. n obviously. e handriting.. hahax. sux laa. rofl. n oya! e cancer charity show horx. omg. after i finished e ti gang n went out of my rm. yay! ocean! hahax. though he not v shuai. but i like his voice. :) e gu dan bei ban qiu is jux so nice lorx. memories jux flash bac like movies. so sweet. yet so hurt. tings r different. tings change.

aye u noe wat? wanan take lift todae. den one idiot came out of e lift wit a cigaratte. -.- wtf laa. dat assholic guy hu live nxt to my house. u noe wat? he owaes throw cigarattes to my rm one lorx. i mean hes aimin. u noe hw i noe? e small ledge outside my rm got cigarattes butts lorx. i was like freak laa. -.- cuz my bro bed is jux nxt to e window. wat if it realli got in? freak it. seriously. i realli dislike smokers. i realli hate smokers. i realli detest fcukin smokers. -.- dey wan die dey go demselves laa. dun pull me wit dem. i wanna stay pure. pengx.

tml got cdc.

mayb. i ll haf tues blue..

ai mei rang ren shou jin wei qu.

times change..

alone- 9:24 PM

=x

alrite. ty ppl. ty for cheerin me up. though.. ty. for tokin some sense into me. though.. ty for tolerating my attitude.

stop suanin me. stop hl-ing. stop irritating me.. -.- i haf enuff. grrrr..

orite nth much happen. jux dat. i realli got lotsa stuffs to do menx. 15 zuo wen ti gang. 5 other skool prelim paper. biang. :( stress sia. y mux we haf chi olvl? y mux we so cham? y mux we suffer? wth menx. y mux there b olvl?!

i miss sec 2. seriously. i realli miss sec 2 life. easy. carefree. happi. dats e wae i wanna live my life. but nw. dat dream is gettin further n further. yawn* stress. how to study well!! ans me! teach me! tell me!!

menx. dis sux. i jux wanna reach my dream. so near. yet so far. lolx.

trying. not hard enuff?

alone- 7:47 PM

i jux dun understand y. sometimes. when u gif up so mani tings. n get nth in return. y ll u feel angry? y ll u feel being taken for granted. i jux wanna b noticed.. isit realli so impossible? i jux wanna b a normal person. i jux wanna b happi.. i jux wanna b. a gd frien..

alone- 9:31 PM

'hard work ll pay off 1.'

dats wat all u guys sed. but y rnt it happenin on me? y m i so fcuking stupid? y m i so suay de?

had a real bad dae.. no mood to tok. so plx. leave me alone. stop tryin to tok some sense into me. its practically useless. stop tryin to cheer me up. u may c my smile. but let me tell u dis. its all fake. so. gif up.

since e mornin. i knew todae was gonna b a bad dae. n indeed. it all went all rong.. too rong.. y mux e vc in my class? y mux i noe dat theres cdc todae? y mux it spoil my dae? yes. after i knew dat theres cdc todae. i noe. e results i got bac. ll sux. n yes. i failed my eng. cheers! -.- my chi got b4. my emaths sux. y mux u tell me? y mux u let me noe? y cant u jux let me pretend dat theres nth on todae?

i couldnt accept e truth. u noe? truth hurts.. i ve been tryin so hard. soooo hard.. n yet. all i get bac was a fail. eng. was suppose to b my not so gd yet not so bad subj. n wow. fail! chi? y m i blind? y cant i c e ans? y m i so suck? emaths. y mux e i b so careless? f.

sometimes. ppl jux need someone to lean on. sometimes. ppl jux need a shoulder to cry on. sometimes. i jux need someone to hug n cry out my heart. but. i cant. had a break after eng paper. wheE~ everyone was soooo happi. yet me? tryin to swallow my tears. yes. some ppl tryin to comfort me.. but. so wat? its a fact dat i failed. im a sucker. ocumon. face e truth.. jl n i went behind audi. tok till i wanna cry. yet. i din. jl wan me cry. u noe wats my excuse? 'im alrdy soo ugly. cry liao more ugly. dun wan..' u noe hw hard isit to pretend nth is rong? its not ez..

todae. u win. i lost. happi?

alone- 8:09 PM

todae. is e sec 4 graduation dae..

u noe wat i mean? one yr later de todae. is my graduation dae.. =x dats so.. sad..

imagine. i gotto leave my beloved class. n might nv c dem again.. aww. dats so patheticc.. i noe i wont c dem again after sec 4.. i jux knew it.. i wont b gg jc. so. ll anione miss me? lolx. jux hope. dey can all b xing fu.. aiyo.. im jux sec 3 lo.. y tink so much.. hahax. but.. time flies.. =x

3 yrs. i exp alot. friendship. tears. hatrad. mayb. one dae i realli hafta learn to letgo.. to b happi.. lolx. but. y m i so stubborn. y cant i let go like wat i told others to do.. y i lidat. anw.. e sec 4s todae r.. sad i suppose? hahax. last dae lehx. exclude those remedials or wat laa. those memories.. walaoeh.. so bloody sad menx. their speech was.. er. eh.. hmm... lolx. we shall do better nxt yr kae? :D

hahax. so todae. went to do smt. n bac. soooo damn bloody tired. yawn* hahax. but at least. we r happi. :) anw. ty rl.. lolx. so ya.. din do ani theory.. =x duno hw to face cher tml.. SIANX. life. is jux. so. borin..

maple lvl 19. x) i wan hurry 20. lvl 20. lvl 20. lvl 20. ocumon. hurry!!

lolx. anw. i learn smt todae. dun wan tell u lehx. i wanna gif my friens surprise. at d end of e yr bahx. prob. but. onli my close friens laa.. sry to d otherx. :P

lalala-

alone- 9:49 PM

changed skin. :) after bout 1mth. i finally got e time. lolx.

hmm. yaa. so todae was a slack dae. but not v slack anw. did hw. =x theory.. :( its so horribly sianx u noe? but i cant dun do.. if not cher not happi.. sux plx. dunno y ll i get involve in music.. n hw m i gonna get tru it for e rest of my life? no choice laa. i got nth gd. not gd in studies. not gd in physical. i can onli put all my hope in music liao. pengx. when ll i ever b pro at it.. sianx.

maple. sux. waste my whole afternn at hw to fix it.. -.- lucky in d end fix liao. lolx. ty ql. :) n charr of cuz. hahax. ^^ no time pia maple dis few daes. realli lotsa tings to do menx. after exams still lidat.. even more bz sia. how borin can life b when u jux needa do e tings u r assigned to do. n got NO freedom..

erm. ya.. tml sec 4 graduation. wonder y shld we go. -.- its e sec 4s prob mahx. y mux i go. to c my seniors off? y shld i. waste my time nia.. oopx. sry. im not referin to those nice ones. its e disgustin shitt. hu tinks dey r e bex. hu treat me invisible. hu dun treat my pressence as smt. hu treat me like shitt. u nv noe hw hurt it can b. cuz u sux. u r inhuman. u got NO rite to deserve my respect.

erm so ya.. suddenly jux waa watch lotsa lotsa movie. xD alamaka. movie craze. lolx. watch movie wit friens r jux so cool. unlike wit parents.. hu ll onli tink its sooo borin. pengx. :) yay! i got some vcds! i wanna watch dem!! lets celebrate!! dotx..

cant sae celebrate so fast.. lolx. olvl.. chi olvl. in 2 wks time.. im so stress. u noe y? my cuzzin de relative got A1. i cant lose dem. cuz im suppose to b "better" to dem. plx. plx. plx. A1. ahhhhhhhh.

sianx. realli feel like takin up a pen. n rite letterx to my friens. but abit too early yea? hahax. mayb i ll. at d end of e yr. btw. mayb. perhaps. hope so. i can go chalet. class one i mean. :) i realli hope so.. cuz its like soo mani yrs since i went to a chalet. lolx. pray. my parents r in gd mood. :D

lolx. alrite. im so tired. woke up at 7+.. n couldnt slp bac. pengx. nw freakin yawnin. hahax. alrite. nitex.

aye. i so luv my blogskin. :)

alone- 10:02 PM

hi. im bac. miss me? rofl. xD

ok yupp. so here im. so happi. i had a realli fun dae. :) its been a few mths since i play till so happi liao. exams r finally over. x)

flunk. poof- but i heck laa. hahax. nxt wk den sad lorx. nw sad for wat. i still got so mani tings to do plx. sianx. bz. bz. im soo bz..

erm. ya. so todae went to orchard. to watch movie. n take neoprints. 1/4 of loyalty is together menx. oplx. dis is so cool plx. theres jl rl charr hying khang kun erich godf kw kf n me laa duhh. lolx. alamak. e guys r jux so cute. rofl. so gentlemen laa. it has been. erm. nv? since i met guys hu r so gd to gals. menx. i feel so lucky to b in dis class nw. hahax. i got no regrets. :) when we take neoprints horx. n cut e neoprints horx. dey wait patiently for us lehx! when we were window shoppin n luk at cute tings horx. dey wait for us! when we go toilet n took such a long time. dey wait for us! wakao. cant stand it menx. dey r so gd! LOL. anw dey v gd laa. we ate lunch at YOSHINOYA* [edited by charr- LOL.] . or smt lidat laa. quite nice laa. but eat till i bloat plx. hahax. den we took neoprint. kaox. so tiny. i like bugis one more. LOL. e guys horx. duno y dun wan take neoprints one. like ll die lidat.. i nv take wit guys b4 lorx. wan try try oso cannot.. -.- but nvm laa. jux abit pity lorx. anw. enjoy todae. esp e movie. wheE~ GOAL. is sooooo nice oplx. SANTIAGO!! omg. im so crazi over him menx. sooooo shuai!! actualli not v shuai one. but i like his character lorx. which make him so shuai to me. :) omg.. how.. im so despo nw. hahax. bo bian. continue waitig bahx huiyi. one day. he ll appear. but.. whens dat dae?

lolx. tink alot. realli alot when i was tryin to study.. tink i couldnt concentrate bahx.. =x so.. flunk again. dere goes my l1r5. pengx. i crapx alot todae plx. crapx till i m drained.. no more energy liao.. :O lolx. was tinkin of one qn to ask.

jianghuahenqingchudenanren. nihaihaomah?

alone- 8:08 PM

delivered e card.

peace.

i hope.

tings ll jux end like dis..

delivered e card on tues. by myself. :) actuali no laa. jl n rl help me put e letter into e post box. =x c-ing e letter drop in. relieved. finally. i can put dwn everyting. n study liao. finally. after.. 1 mth? lolx. anw. realli hope u ll b xing fu. tink alot stil ytd. was lukin at my hp whenever i recieve a msg. i duno im prayin for ur msg. or prayin u ll not send me. it has been.. how mani mths? 8? lolx. no laa. i tink we know each other bout 10mths liao.. fast. realli. i tot after dis everyting ll end. but y..

finish 4 papers liao. xD emaths paper2 n hcl todae. =x eng n ss ytd. =x flunk. poof-

i shld continue to work hard or not? tony de destiny game is kinda true. im livin in my dream. not reality.. i duno whr im going.. im jux a. fool.

leave me alone.

alone- 2:19 PM

oopx. btw.

our class got in for e zzjsj! xD though din get furx. but we got third. its enuff. x) we rox still. i so luv it. i so luv my class. i so luv 3loyalty! ^^

lolx. after readin charr de blog. i den remem i din fail oral! yay! n in fact. i improve! wahahahahax.

alrite. slpin time. nitex ppl. :)

alone- 9:56 PM

i wanna hurry grow up.

i wanna earn lotsa money.

i wanna buy big house.

i wanna buy big cars.

but money..

cant buy me a gd dad..

i dun haf a dad. i dun haf a gd one. i wanna earn lotsa money. i wanna despise him. i wanna luk dwn on him. i wanna show him dat im not stupid. i wanna show him dat im better den him. at least. i wont let my kids suffer. not like him.. do u noe how xin ku itis to save money? do u noe how much i haf been tryin to save everybit of money even its onli 10cents. do u noe i cant buy e tings i wan? do u noe i cant eat e tings i wan? do u noe its not ez? u. dont know. u onli noe dat im useless. im jux someone hu waste ur money..

i dun wan a dad hu onli noe how to scold his wife n insult his children. i wan a dad. hu noe how to concern me. i wan a dad hu ll buy me e tings i wan. i wan a dad. who can show me more care n luv for his wife n children. n not to vent his anger on. im not his boxing bag. neither is me mum. we r INNOCENT.

fcuk dis guy. i duno him. hes not my daddy. i dun haf one. he is jux one guy hu ll spend all e money i haf been helpin him to save. he is jux one sucker. an asshole. im living in hell. where deres a fcuker screamin everydae.

wtf is rong wit dis guy? y m i born in dis family? y he wanna bring me to dis world to suffer. WHY?

fcuk dis world.

alone- 6:03 PM

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