failure.yes. im a total failure.jux finish performance. ahhhhhhhhhh. expected. i sux. e air con is sooo cold. i got frozen. hands cant move. n of cuz. i cant play well. n i made so mani mistakes dat i wan cry. cry? ku? ku bu chu la.. haix. im even a failure at crying. -.- pengx. ahhhhhh. its over.. plx. its over. stop tinking. stop tinking. .. useless. no use. cant.. argh. i feel like banging on wall sia. wtf. i sux. i sux. i sux. i cant stand it. not animore..argh. argh. argh. headache. haert pain. mind pain. wthhhhhh. =x grade 8. grade 8. grade 8. im not suppose to b grade 8. i cant even play well. wat m i? a failure. a complete failure.duno wat to do todae. finish all my hw. or rather i tink so.. duno wat to do to kip myself occupy. dun feel like study social studies. dun feel like studying chinese. i jux wanna do hw. do hw. bury myself in hw. i dun wan to read. my mind ll drift off to somewhr.. to hw sucky i did..wow. im not onli a failure in studies. but oso in piano!! wheE~ rnt i pro? :)kkx. im a nobody. dat no one likes. :(i sux. haix. haix.tml go to skool. shld i b happi? dat i got someting to do? or shld i b sad? dat i ll b so bz dat i duno hu m i..-.-
i saw mani stars in e dark blue sky jux nw.
menx. jux luv it sia. :)
twinkle twinkle lil stars.
ahhh.
i luv stars.
x)
ahhhhhhhhhhhim not gonna lendanioneanitinganimore.>:(
ZZJSJ!!ahahax. our class is so damn cute. ty charr for doing e 48 slides!! =x realli ty.. sry arhx.. cant help much. lolx. but we did gr8 todae. ms adri sed gd tings bout us. den can tell she was tryin not to cry. hahahax. dat moment is realli so.. touching. :) i luv 3 loyalty'05. we CAN win. SHOULD win. n MUST win. we CAN SHOULD MUST do it!! xD hahahax. yep yep. was telling huiying todae dat actualli rite. tink tink horx. realli tink dat 3ly is much more better den 2ep. but i stil luv 2ep la. jux dat i feel dat 3ly din haf mani different grps. we r willing to mix wit each other. whereas in 2ep. i din realli find e same type of spirit. which is kinda sad yea? but i stil haf some gr8 friens dere la. sad not in same class animore.. =( but nvm. i shall realli cherish 3ly more. was tinking of nxt yr.. we ll b so bz preparing for olvl dat we wont b able to haf e energy to cherish e time together one rite? we ll all m so anxious of studies one. definitely.. den after olvl. we cant c each other liao. coz hol le mahx. den if no outing. e nxt time we ll meet ll b march when recieving olvl results.. lolx. i siaox liao. tink so far for wat. but realli kinda sad. =x btw. i ll start to try to cherish every moment nw. ^^ cuz we rox. :) ahhax. todae muscle ache liao arhx. lactic acid is produced for e anaerobic respiration ytd. but too much. too much of lactic acid is toxic worx. therefore im pain nw. nxt wk sure more lactic acid one lorx. den surely more cham. =x ahhhhhhhhhhh. im CRAZI. bio CRAZE. =xso fast.. todae is thurs liao. fast.. realli fast..time flies.. dis sun hafta perform in concert.. -.- i dun wan lorx. i scared i play rong notes i can go bang wall plx. so malu.. i hate performance.. if not cher force me. tink i wan go? its jux a wasting of time. waste my precious time. -.-oya.. smt bad realli happen. tues md de hp kana stolen. ytd zj de guitar kana stolen. tink one of my seniors is involve of e stealing on tues. but wat bout ytd? i dunno.. y.. my senior.. i cant believe dat.. he was so gd to us lorx.. hes in my drama. he not bad. but i duno y.. ren bu ke mao xiang? confused-i dun understand ppl.. steal? for wat.. content not gd mehx? =x haix. sad..hmm. todae was tired. realli tired. had a few slpless nitex liao. i noe im very very very tired.. but when i lie on bed. i jux cant slp. why? duno.. dis few daes were lidat. strange.went hm wit julia hying sp tony. dey were suaning tony wat sis n wat ah gua. pengx. den i was at behind laughin like mad. n we saw ppl runnin for 2.4km. den we were at dere shouting jia you. hahahahax. like crazi peepx. but nvm. dat shows we r HIGH. lolx. was not feeling well todae. tink i gonna fell sick again.. dis mornin was sore throat. den flu. later fever den suay. CHOI CHOI. haix. suay. lolx.i feel like tellin someone dat its not worth it. let go. wats e point of feeling so sad. 8mths liao. cry? for wat.. fang shou bahx. but dun tink dat person ll c dis msg. nvm. jux rite out. for fun..lei. zhen de hao lei..
x)ahhax. gdgd. got chance to get gold. at least i hope.. wat i scared nw is my standing broad jump. stress to c so mani ppl arnd me everytime. den somemore huiying furx. walao. c her jump i go bang wall lorx. so pro.. but hope i can get gold anw. got a C for 2.4 run.. i was like draggin myself. c e timing very scary.. u noe wat. anaerobic respiration de energy lil like siaox. den i kip breathe in oxygen as much as possible. tryin to pay e oxygen debt. LOLX. okok.. i study bio till i siaox liao. but dats e truth lorx.. =x hahahax. okok im flyin.. but i oso abit guilty.. i nearly blackout jux nw. den julia hold my hands n we run together.. den its like i was draggin her dwn.. =x den she cant get her aim. im such guilty plx!! =x mux go accompany her run for her trial one. ahhhh. i luv her so much. :)todae i was grumbling since 11+am to godfrey. i was like kip sayin 'omg 3 more hrs to nafa.' den later at 12+pm. i kip saying 'omg 2 more hrs.' LOLX. anw i kip sayin dat la. was like counting dwn. hahax. but realli happi dat i got C. x) lolx. godfrey was teaching me guitar todae. but i was blur blur. duno hw to hold. duno hw to strung. =x okok. im not musical talented plx. =/ but nvm la. got try my bex. at least i hope.. went hm wit julia n tony todae. we took e same bus hm. ahh. we were laughin like MAD. hahahax. realli funny. their jokes were such CRAPX. wahahahax. 3ly so rock. luv it luv it. lolx. hope we can win e zzjsj plx. :) we can n we shall. LOLX. xDphysics remedial tml. =x havent do physics ws yet. haix. m i realli giving up hope? shall c my pressure results bahx. though i din realli study. but i got read some of e qn. n try to steal some knowledge from godfrey. muahahahax. actualli sitting in front not bad lehx. can chat wit chers one. LOLX. got qn can jux ask directly. so ez plx. furx row ppl r getting more n more hardworkin. wondering wat m i doing. slackin.. -.- cannot cannot. im GUAI kia. LOLX. yaya.. i kip going arnd sayin im guai kia. hahax. coz im crazi. lolx. ppl hu sae dey r not crazi den r normally crazi. when i sae guai kia means i not. =( lolx. nvm. i ll try. x) mux learn from e ppl in e furx row. start pia-ing plx. xD we can do it. i wanna move to behind de rows. n we can do it. ^^sianx. gonna eat dinner. hey. let us all add oil for nxt wk de 5 items kae? :) we can do it. i hope i can. =xganbatte!!
depress.duno y suddenly so depress.. tink alot. again.. -.- i hate to tink.. so much.. argh..26may.e dae i wanna cry. e dae i cant cry out. e dae i hafta smile so bright yet so fake. when i was tryin to hold bac my tears. e dae when i saw so mani pity smilex to me. e dae i got no time to tink. e dae im so tired.. e dae when i was gonna to collaspe..dat dae. i hate e mox. i cant believe dis is happenin. but i cant do aniting. cuz im a nth. i duno wat to do.. i was at a loss.. dont pity me.. dont tell me to accept e fact. dont remind me. .. e memory jux kip flash bac. like a movie. bout wat ppl told me. let go. its an exp. exp? wats dat.. im confuse.. shld i quit. or not. pondering. prob im contradictin. but i dunno.. i realli dunno.. i wanna. gif up.todae 2 test. hcl n physics. flunk. heck. dats me. lost faith in myself. no more confidence. its hurtx u noe? when u haf confidence bout urself. but it turn out to b dat u r such a failure. pengx. dis sux. i dun wanna haf confidence. not animore. i dun wan to fail again.. shi bai shi bai? =xe feelin of losing a frien. i noe. i understand. i had enuff. exp? :) xi guan jiu hao. numb lo.jianjiandandandexingfu. wonengyongyoumahx?
hey..
u noe wat?
i gave up hope on physics.. :(
haix.
can i still pass? -wondering-
i hate myself. : )
nth.i shldnt b here nw. i shld b at cdc. i noe. i noe. i noe. i dun need u to remind me. cdc. hmm. furx jux to sae. i din pon cdc. realli. but. ll u even believe me? no. u wont. u ll onli tink dat coz i not in comm so i bu shuang n wan pon. gd interpretation. BUT. its rong. i got smt on. BUT. ll u believe? ll u even care? i went to make ic todae. yupp. but. i noe u got ur reasonings. i v diam todae. noe y? cuz of sth which st sed. ya. i noe charleen sick. fever? or slight fever. anw. shes not feeling well.. ask her to go hm. as a frien. but she sae. no. cuz of cdc. den i sae nvm one la. sick mux go hm recover mahx. den noe wat st sae me? cuz u guys pon cdc dats y she cant go hm. wtf? fcuk. i pon? .. yes. of cuz. i noe im a nth. but dat doesnt mean im so cheap dat i ll b dat irresponsible. i noe wat im doin. hello. plx. im sick too. jux dat i dun act weak. i act strong. i dun wan to show u guys.. e weak side of me. unless i realli got no energy to act animore.. dun insult me. i cant take such insult. when i tryin to act strong. dat doesnt mean dat im strong. if u realli tink dats it. sry. plx dun read on. u r jux trying to contradict urself.todae compre test. e words st sed jux kip flashing bac in my brain. during e whole 2 hrs. im jux so diam. read my storybk. is dis e real me? jux wanna sae here. i once promise xr dat i wont anihow pon cdc. n i ll do it. plx. dun suspect me. i can jux quit. ANITIME. u can try me. but dun regret. since im a nth alrdy. i dun mind. jux dun. force me. i had enuff. cdc is jux nth to me nw. no feelings. not animore.. plx. dun luk dwn on me. i got my own right.failed for chem test. lucky no single digit. but yet. stil fail.. dis shows dat hard work. dun pay off.. dat goes my efforts. into e drain. is my turning life at sec 3? whr im such a loser. such a failure. shi bai shi bai. im jux a nth. ihate myself..argh. cant i haf a better life? sux.
tired.jux return hm. eatin dinner nw. lolx. :)theres volley interclass jux nw. wit md. =x n we. lost. BUT. its ok. ly ll owaes b e champion in me heart. in 3loyalty's heart. xD so hey guys. SMILE. x) coz u guys had done ur bex yea? : ) 3ly'05 rox. forever.hmm. todae. everyone seems soo restless. soo tired. so sad? duno lehx. jux feel dat we r so sianx e whole dae. we r tryin to get some slp when we r given break. or. we ll b tryin to ask bio. lolx. yepp. bio test todae. hard. difficult. argh. jux hope i can pass. : )smile. yea.. smile. : ) lolx. when u c ppl put : ) ll u b abit happier? lolx. : ) hahax. so hey ppl. smile. its all over. nono. stil got more tests cuming up. =x every wk test. sianxx.. haix. m sick. yepp. but u cant tell dat im sick. lolx. cuz. i can stil jump arnd. but. truly indeed dat im sick. lolx. oya. forgot to get mc. LOLX. but even if got mc oso no use. stil hafta run 2.4km. lolx. nw im recovering. coz. i eat plain fishball noodle nearly everydae for lunch. : ( awfulli sux plx. i wan laksa. : ( lolx. but nvm. once i got recover. i can eat dem all i like. xD but horx. if u c me cant move or realli luk sick. im alrdy severly sick. hahax. dat happens b4. on e performance dae. =xhmm. took foto ytd. for e ic ting. haix. den of cuz i luk sux. so sad plx. den todae my mum reminds me. of hw sickening i luk. -.- haix. wan cry. sit at a corner. den my mum walk past. den bu shuang me. -.- cant i even had my own privacy. cant i even do wat i like..anw. ytd got jay jay concert!! rl julia n ch went. at ngee ann poly. ahhhh. i wan go!! but no tix. lolx. even if got tix. i oso cant go.. mum ll NV allow. =x so accept fate. lolx.voiceless nw. jux nw cheer too much. =x hope tml got voice sia..hey. sometimes. we realli hafta learn to let go. fang shou. to b xing fu. u wanna b blessed? den smile. : ) n let go. den. u r xing fu. agree? hahax. learn to appreciate bahx. b4 we regret. i got nice family. jux stop grumbling. gd sis. gd bro. jux learn to cherish dem. dey rox.xing fu. x)
ahh. i luv me family. :) xing fu.sick.sick.sick.sick.sick.
happy birthday!! wheE~
yepp. im old. lolx. lao yi sui liao. hey guys. thx for ur prezzie. luv ya lots. x)special thx to:qinlicharrhuiyingzhijuanyihuirunlinglishimichelleliqingyongqingzhijunzhangchuan thx. for e prezzies. hahax. n of coz hafta thx those hu sms me wishing me happi bdae de. x) touched. yea. din noe dat u guys still remember. hahax. i tot im forgotten. =x lolx. :P but e truth is im realli forgotten by some. so. heck. lolx.. haix. none of my bro remembers lidat lehx. whrs my prezzie.. :( nvm la. no prezzie nvm one. but at least sms me mahx. 5cents wont kill de mahx.. or one testi or email. free plx.. but i got none.. lolx. tink im realli forgotten bahx. tryin to.. let go.. fate cums n go. we jux hafta learn to accept e fact.. isnt it? =x though e truth hurts. at least it brings us bac to reality..dis yr de bdae. not realli fun. i mean.. none of my bdae in skool times rox.. lolx. i mean since i pri1.. when i small. i got cakes. when i old. no more cakes.. lolx. anw. ya. todae mum cook mian xian for me. wat can i sae? nice lorx. lolx. ya. den go for tuition. n study.. sianx. den go out wit mum.. i suggest one. coz.. realli v long nv go out wit her le.. 1yr? ya.. after i started playin tibia.. nv realli bothers to go out wit her. haix. mayb im realli not filial.. todae ask her go out. go chinatown. lolx. tink she happi lorx. her daughter manage to pluck out sometime to go out wit her lehx. x) if not i wan go celebrate wit friens one lorx. but.. but.. hu can i celebrate wit? everyone is so.. bz.. ls got ndp. d others i duno la.. anw.. ya.. so jux took a foto of all my prezzies. lolx. i noe im lame. but wat can i do? kip as memory plx. :P yea. anw. met sean kefan kaiwen dey all at aljunied mrt dere todae. scared me u noe. i was wearin skirt!! =x den i hurry hide here n dere n try to get to e mrt dere. but bet none of dem saw me. x) coz. im wearin skirt!! LOLX. lastly. realli ty for those hu wished me happi bdae n gif me prezzie one. x) hey peepx. rite testi for me lehx.. wont kill rite? :P ahhh.. okok.. jkjk.imforgottenbyu. iwantogetuoutofmylife. cuzihateu..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUI YI!!YAY!! i grow old liao. hopefully. can b more mature. n learn to let go more.. sometimes tryin to hold on someone ll make dat person detest u. agree? so. learn to open one eye close one eye bahx. n may i stop flunking my results. but dat seems impossible.. but anw deres pros n cons. hmm. may i stay focus on my work. stop day dreaming. hope i can learn to b more polite. and not so rush. and to do tings with tinkin. x) lastly. hope no one forgets me. :P wheE~ may all my wishes cum true. LOLX. huiyi x) -
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERICH!!
yea!! july rox kae. xD mine is cumin. hope dis yr is special. lolx. tink im greedy. but anw. i m alrdy content. realli. new ppl appear in my life. my new life. charr n huiying gave me my prezzie liao. force me to open den i cry. lolx. so touched plx. e doggie. so CUTE!! xD hahax. yea. i luv dem!! xD dey still remem my bdae!! lolx. so touched. :') hahax. din expect anione to remember one lorx. lolx. x) ai si dem liao. lolx. x)
ya. jux return hm. jux finish dinner. jux stop my gastric from painin. =x todae i v suay la.. at hm i beri clumsy. so clumsy till my mum bu shuang me.. -.- aniwae ty eve charleen xr. x) thx for callin my mum. =x aniwae. tml olvl cl lc. =/ hey guys. add oil kae? mux get A1. coz we rox. x) JULY ROX!!
=xi realise smt. time change. ppl change. life. change.. alot of my once gd friens r strangers nw. one of my kor. i duno if hes reading. but dun tink so. coz. we r nw. strangers. tok wont more den 3 sentence. sad? yes. i m sad. but wats e point? let go. his other meix better. coz. me sux. x) i stil remember last time. chat on fone. till 12+am. o0. 10+-12+am. break my record. yes. he is e one hu break my record. but so wat? dat doesnt mean we can stay as close. lolx. after a period of time. after i taught him hw to fold stars. we r. completely strangers. mayb my luk. not as gd as he expected? lolx. yea. i agree. coz me sux. on msn when he no need face me. we r cold. as strangers. no topic. he wont start a conv like he once used to. even if i try to start. his reply ll b like a few words nia. why? coz. me sux.its hw strange when u c e ppl arnd u change. some to gd. but some. to worse. wat can u do? i can do nth menx. mayb except dat i can onli kip my mouth shut bahx. =x helpless. ever got e feelin of helpless? yes. i do. sometimes i jux dun feel like defending myself. coz i find it useless.. todae. erm. i cried. i kip scold myself u noe? cry over such stupid ting. but aniwae. u guys shld go try out n feel fell from stairs de zi wei. den u noe wat i mean. not fun. realli. if u tink i realli is coz i dun wan run e 2.4 den go purposely fell from stairs.. den sry. realli sry. i got nth much to sae. ms yeo. out of courtesy i greet u as ms yeo. but after todae. my opinion change. i dun respect u. not animore.jux nw oral. no one send gd luck msg. walaoeh one lorx. d other of my friens oral i got send dem gd luck. den me lehx? -.- onli hying send testi sayin gd luck. n mich send me msg afew daes earlier. d others.. -.- i mean other class one la. not my class one. anw my class we oso got kip say gd luck. whrs my friens. feel loner plx. lolx. anw. used to it le bahx. ppl forget me. coz. me sux. LOLX. x) anw. i did fairly well. at least. i tink so.. at least i tink its better den e one ji lao shi gif me one. i speak more. though some points i repeat one.. LOLX. xPhaix. todae. duno la. hafta complete hw.. coz i din do. ytd was tryin to read e oral notes.. but todae din use dao. so. m i wasting my time? lolx. anw. gtg la. hahax.ijuxwannabhappi..
oya. i met my long lost frien. LOLX. my pri 6 de tuition gd frien. hahax. evonnie. she nv change. still so friendly. x)realli like tok to gd buddies menx. hahax. realli happi to c her. xD shes so chio now. ^^aniwae. u noe wat. i suddenly feel so scared bout tml de oral. argh. how?! haix. i scared i ll flunk it. menx. bless me. PLX.=x
todae is mondae.mondae. mani tings happen. coz it is such a long dae. new sitting place. er.. eh.. hmm. okok la my new seat. dunno y. sit in front realli get to focus more. ya.. manage to complete my drill bk. LOLX. yaa. tony godfrey n jocelyn r friendly. hahax. yea. nice peepx. x) at least. not alone. LOLX. get to haf free sweeetx. wheE~ LOLX. yaya. sweetie tooth i haf. =x erm ya. 2 tests todae. i realli got study. realli.. but i noe no one ll believe one la. c my results kns. hu ll believe? but i reali did put in effort. realli. but jux dat. nth can get in my mind. when i c e qns. my mind is in total BLANK. walaoeh.. imagine. all my effort gone like dis. bet my dis chem test fail sure. n is fail till cannot fail those kind.. =x sianx lorx. practice makes perfect. BUT. no one is perfect. so. wat for practice? -.- chi tink i gonna flunk. though i din fail for sec1a n b de paper. dats jux luck? lolx.aniwae. ya. my body is achin. on e wae to skool im like limping lorx. den reach skool try not to limp. if not ppl tot i ki siaox. pengx. tml duno cher ll believe i reali cant run anot. haix.. oya btw. todae is charr de bdae!! wheE~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! xDhahax. i noe charr luv us damn lot nw. xD hmm.. btw. heard dat someone tryin to jump dwn from new blk de second floor. PENGX. hw fake. 2nd floor.. -.- hw to die? if u realli wan jump u wont choose sec floor plx. -.- lolx. changed locker. nw my dar dar locker is jux NXT to me. LOLX. so shuang plx. x) but a bit small. but nvm. i like it to b nxt to me. LOLX. hmm.. den nth much happen liao lorx.. tml oral. plx. wish me luck.. =x
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME?!?!?!?!?!?!yea. i fell dwn. -.- from stairs.. after piano lesson. noe wat my mum sae? she sae at least u is fell face down. not roll dwn e stairs. -.- ya la. i fell straight la. den fell on my left side of body. u noe wat? everyting jux happen like slow motion. i can feel every moment lorx.. wth? wtf. -.- i climb up. n dat half of my body is cramp. or numb? aniwae. beri pain. pain till so numb. den my sandals spoil. den when i gona get to bus stop. saw e bus no.9. BUT. i cant run. pain.. so pain.. jux like my heart. shattered. hurt. LOLX. so dramatic. wahahahax. but aniwae. realli sway. den i go arnd findin rubber bands. -.- coz my shoe gonna drop off. means spoil la. wth lorx.. so suay plx. den i limp limp get to bus stop. sit dere. rubb my legs. rubb my hands. rubb my shouler. rubb my ankle.. argh. nw its aching all over. dun even noe if i can run for tues de pe anot. tell cher i sprain my ankle she sure dun believe one lorx. coz i din go c doc.. =x argh. damn blooody horribly terribly horrifyly helly freaky SUAY.get hm. study. tryin to get everyting into my head. but to no avail.. nth can get in.. argh. tml 2 tests. tues olvl chi oral. wed i forgot wat to do. thurs cdc. fri olvl chi lc n tuition. sat tuition. sun piano. dang. im sooo dead.. i wanna dis to over. OVER plx..argh. HOW COULD DIS HAPPEN TO ME?!?!?!?! sooo hurt.. so pain.. haix..
eatin tomatoes nw.
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i open my eyes. i try to c but im blinded by e white light.i cant remember how. i cant remember why.im lying here tonite.and i cant stand e pain.and i cant make it go awae.no. i cant stand e pain.how could this happen to me.i made my mistakes.ive got nowhr to run.the nite goes on as im fading awae.im sick of dis life.i jux wanna scream.HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME?everybody's screaming. i try to make a sound but no one hears me.im slipping off the edge.im hangin on a thread.i wanna start dis over again.so i try to hold onto a time when nth mattered.n i cant explain wat happened.n i cant erase e tings that ive done.no i cant.how could dis happen to me.i made my mistakes.ive got no whr to run.e night goes on as im fading awae.im sick of this life.i jux wanna scream.HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME.
hii. new seatin plan out. i m at e furx row. jux coz my results sux. -.- yea. gratx to me. pengx.isit true dat. hand in homework on time ur results ll improve? nahx. i dun believe. dis theory is FALSE lorx. i got hand in homework. ON TIME. to homework on time is not late kae.. but y does my results sux still? :( hurts plx. when mrs indra sae wat huiyi needs more attention on her work from us.. -.- walaoeh.. i so guai plx. but mayb not. i m pai kia. happi? -.- haix. gonna miss charr zj hying n pei pei. =x no choice. i deserve it. imagine at e corner of e class. ALL ALONE. ):ytd cdc. i gastric pain. but yet. i hafta act like i m not in gr8 pain. pengx. den on e wae out. got some strangers play soccer. den e soccer fly out. dey wan me help dem throw bac. -.- in d end i no energy lorx. den FINALLY. dey manage to get wat i tokin. go to small gate n pass dem e ball. dotxx. den miss bux. den hungry n gastric. get hm late. bout 7.30. parents bu shuang. n blah blah. sometimes wonderin. wats my point of livin? hu is supportin me? my friens? nahx. dey r bz enuff. my relatives? nahx. trouble dem enuf liao. my family? er.. eh.. hmm. ll dey even care dats e prob. myself? i m alrdy drained. no more energy. tired. realli tired.. wanna gif up plx. as usual. life sux. same pessimistic as my kor. lolx. no choice. born like dis. how to change?forgif. but nv forget. dats july peepx speciality. lolx. yea. u noe hw does it feels like when ur words jux pierce into my heart? mayb its harsh. or mayb i m jux TOO sensitive. u noe wat ur words mean like to me? when u sae those words. when u do those things. when u act like u care. u r jux like piercing needles into my heart. jux like hw u pierce nails into fence. even when u haf sed sry. even when u haf tried taking out all e nails. its useless. e holes. r still dere. no matter hw u try to cover it. u cant lie dat e hole is gone. bcoz its dere. forever.. sry no cure? hw i hope i can live w/o e need saein sry. coz. i dun wanna hurt anione..y u like to hurt me so much? r u done wit it?
ppl hafta feel content to b happi rite? x)so yea.i m content.coz i haf such a gr8 kor.^^wheE~ i wan me b happi!-content-x)
WHOO HOO~xD todae i kip laugh. WHY?! i oso dunno!! x)hahax. in extremely gd mood since mornin. ^^ hahax. though missed bus in e mornin. n lost my water bottle. i m STIL able to stay happi. cool yea? xD haix. duno how n why i lost my water bottle. :( my dar dar bottle is LOST. walaoeh.. heartache plx. =x but nvm. got new bottle. n i tell u dis. dis one is much more NICER lorx. wheE~ xD coz its white. or grey? duno la. black grey white is my life. enter or leave.wahahahax. coool plx. x) mayb sai weng shi ma yan zhi fei fu is true. lolx. ya. den todae run 2.4km. giddy like siaox. nearly fall dwn plx. =x wth? i grow so pathetic weak. -.- weakling. -.- nv had i expect myself to b such.. =/ yea. den din do standin broadjumps. coz i suck at it. wat for do n lost face. rite? lolx. den do 30 situps. lolx. situp ez la. but duno y. do liao. breathin dere damn bloody pain. nw stil pain sia. lolx. hmm. OYA. mrs indra forgot bout e new sitting plan!! wheE~ or rather. i tink dat she forgot to do. LOLX. x) but nvm. i luv my seats nw. at least its arnd my gd buddies yea. xD hmm. den. ahha. charr sot todae. LOLX. call me half wae in class.. -.- i tot my mum call me n ask me if i haf found my bottle sia. pengx. LOLX. n she kip sae jason everywhr. yea yea. JASON!! LOLX. dun dare comment aniting. or u wont b able to c tml liao. :P hahax. bex wishes worx. i dun realli noe him well. but trust ur taste. ^.-go for him!! xD ya. den kip laughin at all e jokes by charr zj hying ms adri n mrs indra. LOLX. kip laughin. laugh till cry again.. =x lolx. ye.a i m WEAK. =/ okok. gtg liao. tml got chi test!! dang. n i study halfwae nia.. X_x may god bless me. lolx. x)
HAPPY YOUTH DAE!!we hafta wait for 1 more mth for holidae liao :(HAIX..
??y?! wats gg on? wth happen?!!y do i cry halfwae when i was watchin tv?! y does my tears jux flow out like dis uncontrollably? wat happen? isit bcoz of ytd de conv? but i tot i usualli dun mind? coz i noe. i sux.yea. duno wat happen la. anw. ytd shi kang jun cum our skool. he was taking foto near e lake dere when our class went dwn for health chec. e fotographer wan us to take pics wit him. but our class so unwilling menx. while other class was like screamin when they saw him. penngx. hes not dat shuai mahx. onli ave nia. so crazi bout him for wat. LOLX.after dat. we delay our time to assembly. xP lolx. ya. den went to tend mrs tan de booth at concourse. den. smt bad happen. a thief in our class. can u believe e thief is our classmate? i dunno.. but i tot loyalty shld b loyal to each other? confuse.. anw. to e thief. plx. steal ipod nxt time. -.- dun b stupid till like dis. pengx.hmm. den tend stall till 4pm. moxly sell drink. coz drink cheap mahx. d others.. =x ya. den bought roti boy formy mum. den she duno hw to appreciate.. -.- abit of waste my money for someone hu dun bother to care.ya. den dat nite. my bro was throwin temper coz he dunno e time duration fo war of world. pengx. lolx. thx for charr. if not he ll continue anihow scold.. -.- angry cuz of dis abit.. sot? dotx. he jux came hm. hey. he bought sweeets for me lehx! omegod.. dats so rare plx.. as in realli RARE. it has been 3yrs since he has realli toked to me. it has been 3 yrs since we play together. it has been 3 yrs since he ll gif me smt.. 3yrs. not long. but not short either.. realli happi when he sae nah den gif me e sweets. x)haix. y m i cryin again? an pei na ge chang bi sai not sad lorx. y do my tears kip cumin out? dang..
wats life.
when its so meaningless.
might as well die?
can i?
i wan peace.
leave me alone.
miracle.
happen plx.
haix.
whrs e bright side of life?
i wan everyone
to b happi.
>.<
huiyi (:
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